I have been going to Capital Christian Center for a few years now and I feel kind of stagnant right now.  During service I don't feel like the message is really having any affect on me.  I have been toying with the thought of finding a new church that is not so big.  In addition, I have started to feel less and less comfortable with the sermons that are being given.  The pastor talks about things in his sermons that I just makes me feel uncomfortable and he goes on tangents that makes me forget what the message really should be about.  I miss my home church and my old pastors sermons that always got the point across and almost never went on a tangent.  My home church is a Baptist church and for some of my life I grew up baptist because the christian schools I attended were at Baptist churches.  I was also raised in the Episcopal church and I miss singing those hymns and reading out of the prayer book.  I wish that I could find a church that is like a combination between Baptist and Episcopal.  Maybe some day I will find the church that I feel I could spend the rest of my life being a member of because right now I don't think I would sign up as a member of Capital.

On another note does anyone know how to explain the results of a spiritual gifts test?  I took one and I don't know what to make of it or how to use the information to help me become a stronger christian.

So this is what has been happening in my life as of late.

1.  Had to deal with a lawsuit against me because of a car accident, which I still don't know the outcome of.

2.  Dad had prostate surgery because he had cancer.  Add on complications from surgery which is causing him to off and on use a catheter.

3.  Was sick with bronchial issues all through February and March.  Got sick again in April.

4.  While I was sick in April I took the RICA which I did pass, yay for me.

5.  Had difficulties in my original student teaching placement, was transferred to another school, did somewhat better but still failed my student teaching porion of my units.  Have to redo if I want to get my credential.

6.  My neighbors below me have an issue with someone who keeps vandalizing their car and they are blaming my roommate and I for it.  We had one little incident with some glass that my roommate broke, which she eventually apologized for.  The neighbors then threatened us and started calling us vulgar names.  We brought this to the attention of the apartment managers and they told our neighbors that they are not to talk to us because if they do then they could be evicted.

7.  At the same time that the neighbor issue was happening my grandpa had a stroke and got pneumonia.  His body then started shutting down and the doctors could do nothing for him but make him comfortable.  A week to the day he passed away.  I miss him dearly and I just pray that he is with God now.  I am happy that he is no longer in pain.

8.  I finally told my Mom that I did not pass the credential program and I was blessed that she did not yell and scream at me like I had been thinking.  She wants the best for me but it is hard for her to do so when some of the things she tells me hurts me.